When I found out, I was pretty upset - I'm not sure "devastated" is quite the word, but definitely crushed. Suddenly, I found myself reeling under a tidal wave of confusion about what I'm even doing with my life. I dub those 32ish hours my Quarter Life Crisis.
I am so thankful for my friends that I chatted with at length; their input and sharing really helped me come to terms with my situation and feelings of confusion/over-whelmedness over this crazy little thing called Life.
I also discovered (much to my chagrin), I can't do everything. GASP! WAH?! I know. It surprised me, too. I've always been Ms. Multi-tasker, taking on everything all at once. Well, I realized this week that I don't NEED to tackle my projects in one fell swoop; and, in fact, I've been needlessly over-stressing myself by doing just that. Let me elucidate.
This week, I'm taking on a slightly higher position at work - filling in for a woman who's on vacation. It involves a lot of detail, and I've been super nervous about the whole thing, but also very excited. I also found out I didn't get the lottery housing and (for some reason) decided I needed to 1. Find an apartment and 2. Move in by April. What?! Instead of focusing on my top priority (successfully filling in at work), I was pulling myself in all sorts of crazy directions and getting engulfed by the stress. Thankfully, the night before I took over, I got my head on straight.
I realized it's OK not to cram my life trying to do everything all at once. I'm the one putting these ridiculous pressures on myself - and needlessly! Something that's come up frequently the past several week is that "busy" isn't necessarily good OR productive. I can't begin to describe how true I've found this to be!