Anyway, to make a long story short (;P), reality hit me last week in a big way. Ordinarily, I would've been able to deal with it in a prompt, well-planned manner. But, as I was otherwise inconvenienced with bouts of weeping, noshing desserts, and feeling absolutely terrified, it took a little longer than normal. But, I got there. It helped that today was a pretty great day, on the whole. I had a great audition this morning, a terrific work meeting (have I mentioned lately that I have the best job ever? I mean, our bosses take us out to Mexican restaurants and ply us with liquor for our meetings. All work meetings should be conducted thus), and went to Redeemer's Musical Theatre Forum (though, I make a vow never to sing that sloppily in front of people ever, EVER again).
I've been doing a lot of thinking about possibilities, and it's so strange that my boss randomly came into work last week (at a point where I was seriously considering if I've made some major life mistakes...), and out of the blue gave me a terrific little speech about pursuing what you love - through the hardships, struggles, fears, all the things that come up that might push you away or try to change your course, there is nothing more worthwhile than doing what you love. He said it much better than I've poorly tried to relay, and of course it doesn't/shouldn't apply to all people (like serial killers who like to wear other people's skin....), but it was just what I needed to hear that night. It was just so out of the blue to hear it from him - that's what really made me listen and take note, more so than if I'd heard it from someone in my profession or close to me, personally. God knows what I need, and when things are getting so bleak I can't tough it out by myself anymore, He knows just what to send and how.
So, plans are forming. Hope is returning. I got my boy by my side and candles burnin' on my "hearth".