One thing that was rather terrifying - the first day I hung out with her, all of a sudden my body was like, "I want a baby!!!" and the rest of me (the smart, reasonable side) was all like, "No, I don't!!" So, now I know my body is a traitorous mass of stupidness, and I can actively work against caving to its ridiculous desires. I'm not sure I'm cut out to be a mother, but I know I'm Aunt material of the very best kind.
I must say, it has been delightful being home, again. So many times visiting before, I would become restless and guilty - feeling I was wasting my time doing nothing here at home, when my career in NYC was a'callin'. I would be home for 3 days before wanting to jet straight back to my crazy life in the big city. But not so this time. I am doing an extraordinarily good job of taking each day in its own right and enjoying everything I do. I've met with a few friends, but many are already back to school, so I'm spending much more time with my family, which is really terrific. That is something that's been on my mind recently - I just seemed to keep hearing/reading things about how important family is, and when you're on your death bed, you probably won't be wishing you had worked more, but rather, had spent more time with your loved ones. Now, I am hard-wired to work work work, but I think it's very important for me to learn to cultivate my desire to spend time with my family. They won't be here forever. I am fortunate to get to see 3 of my siblings, as well as both my parents, while on this little trip. And, I got to meet my niece, Calice Tabitha Anderson!!!! Ok, honestly, I never understood the whole aunt/niece/nephew bond people seemed to be on and on about - their ebullient love and affection seemed weird to me - from whence did this fountain spring? I'd seen her in pictures, and didn't feel any special connection. It hadn't hit home that she was quite real, and what our relationship was. When visiting cousin Jenna, she said she'd felt the same way until she met her nephew, and that I'd understand what it was all about when I met her. Well, I don't know from where it came, but I know I'm absolutely crazy about my niece! She is the sweetest, cutest little baby! Ok, maybe you don't quite understand. I have never been good with children, and they have always been freaked out by me (not in the face-painting realm - I mean, my face is painted and it's a party and whatnot, blah blah blah). I would be in line at the grocery store and the child in the cart behind me would look at me and start crying. I wasn't even doing anything! I don't understand them and I obviously terrify them. But Cal not only isn't terrified of me, but I can occasionally coax a smile from her by saying, "Is Aunt Julia being silly? Yes, yes she is!" and I can usually calm her down and stop her from crying by making purring sounds - her dad says I speak her language :P It was Monday morning, and I was getting ready in the upstairs bathroom when I hear my sister in the hall. I opened the door and saw Calice for the first time, and I'm pretty sure I did this goofy little excited dance :P There she was - flesh and blood, living, breathing! We went to the computer room and hung out while my sister, Jessica, did paperwork. I just stared down at little Calice in absolute wonder. When she didn't scream out in terror or start crying from fright, I eased into starting to feel comfortable around her. She quickly latched onto my fingers and proceeded to suck on them. I've learned a few things about this - 1. It feels very funny to have your fingers sucked by a little toothless wonder, B. I must taste pretty darn delicious, and Lastly, Cal has quite the penchant for human flesh - we better watch that one. But there is nothing like being held and squeezed by a completely innocent little baby, just in the very beginning of life, so much ahead of her. It is a master study in living in the moment. So, I must say, I've fallen into the role of Aunt quite well :) Who'd've thunk?! I buy her things all the time, and my face hurts from smiling when I'm around her. I act like a complete idiot, speak like a cliche, and make silly faces at her constantly. It's been so wonderful getting to meet, hang out, and play with my little niece. And I should seriously start a list of all the things I call her - I had no idea I could come up with so many names! Topping the list of Most Used seems to be Nugget and NuggetMunchkin. And I love how funny her dad is and the things he calls her - Comrade Anderson definitely being my favorite. Lol.
One thing that was rather terrifying - the first day I hung out with her, all of a sudden my body was like, "I want a baby!!!" and the rest of me (the smart, reasonable side) was all like, "No, I don't!!" So, now I know my body is a traitorous mass of stupidness, and I can actively work against caving to its ridiculous desires. I'm not sure I'm cut out to be a mother, but I know I'm Aunt material of the very best kind.
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Carolyn
9/25/2012 04:27:54 am
Awwwww, wee little Stormageddon is so cute!
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Nancy
9/28/2012 11:22:46 pm
How sweet! This should go into her babybook.
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